Wish

In case you wanted to know, here is what my eyes are drooling over this Christmas season:

A vintage style cake stand. Here.

This beautiful camera. Here.



These prints. Here.



This beauty. Here.



This scarf. Here.



This book. Here.

I could probably go on forever, but there is a brief look into my wishful thinking mind.. you know, in case you fancied knowing what I'd like under the tree?

Ending Start

I detest the end of semester. Detest. Yes, I meant to use that word. I know that it is a harsh word, but I need to use a harsh word.
For me, end of term means papers upon papers, stress upon stress. Numerous times this week -- and perhaps even more times today I have wanted to quit school, move to an island and never look at another book again. Crazy I know, because we all know that I adore books, but this is what end of term does to me. I hate it.
Every time that I have to write a paper, especially term papers, I procrastinate. A lot. I try to avoid writing as much as possible, and then when I finally have to give in and write, it's like I am being sentenced to the torture chamber and must go through the worst of it.
Perhaps I am being slightly dramatic, but this is how it is. December 16th, you cannot come soon enough!

In Memoriam

Thirty years ago, one of the greatest songwriters of all time was killed. Thirty years ago today, John Lennon died at the age of forty. So young!
Today in memory of the great John Lennon, I listened to some of my very favourite Lennon songs. "Imagine", "Instant Karma (We All Shine On)", "Jealous Guy", "Real Love"... you get the picture.
John Lennon left a great legacy and I will forever be grateful for his amazing music.

Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer

We all know that I have infinite love for the great Jack Johnson. And Christmas. Put them together, and what do you get? Christmas carols that are realistic! And beautiful too.
Jack Johnson's "Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer" is one of my very favourites, especially with his ending. If you don't know what I am talking about (and even if you do), then you need to listen to it right this minute. (Just press play and enjoy, it's that simple).

Old Enough

I am realizing more and more that I am growing up -- whether I like it or not. I often don't feel old enough to have friends married, or having babies. It seems strange to think that I could be married in less than two years, and starting that chapter of my life.
This feeling of "not being old enough" is pretty strong right now, especially with my newest calling. Today I was called to be the Relief Society President of my YSA ward. It is such a huge responsibility and I am terrified! Our last president was so amazing. I have really big shoes to fill!
What I have learned this weekend is that prayers are answered. And also that Heavenly Father knows my potential, even if I myself can't see it.
I just need to remember to take really deep breaths. In. And out.
"Keep calm and carry on", right?

Book Club: December Pick

Thank you to M and Holly for voting on this month's book. For those that wish to join, we will be reading Charles Dickens' classic, "A Christmas Carol". It's a really short read (just over 100 pages), so hopefully you can find some time to add a little joy to your holiday.
Happy reading!
xo

ps. I posted some discussion questions for November's pick, and would love some feedback!

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O Christmas Tree

This is just for you, Laura.

Last night, I bought myself a Christmas tree. I have always wanted a little tree in my room, but just never found one that I liked. But now that I am a little older, I have felt a great desire to have one. Plus, mom says I am "nesting". I am ready to have my own house, but because I currently lack funds to do so, I just try to decorate my parent's house here and there with little splashes of "Kristi".
I love my Christmas tree and look forward to using it for many years. Plus, I am in love with my ornaments. They are festive, but funky too -- with lots of glitter.

I love Christmas!

Book Club: Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Discussion

Okay reading buddies, let's discuss!
It's been quite the busy day, so I haven't given much thought to this questions, but here it goes.

1. Let's start with an easy question. Did you like the book? Why or why not?
2. How does the final chapter in the Harry Potter series compare with books 1-6?
3. Did the in-depth study of certain characters (ie. Snape, Dumbledore or even Harry, Hermione, etc.) change your perception of them? Or did you remain true to your original feelings prior to reading?
4. Does the book end with enough closure? Or did it leave you wanting more?
5. Did you also see the movie? If so, how did you like it (or dislike it) in comparison with the book.

I'd love your feedback!

Happy reading.
xo

A Little's Enough

Last weekend, I found mini-muffin pans on sale. I couldn't say no, especially since I have been dreaming of making cute mini cupcakes since my friend's wedding reception in October. So, tonight when I got home from school, I decided it was time to try them out.
Behold the finished product:

I love making cupcakes. 

And thank you mom for letting me use your beautiful camera -- now I know for certain that I NEED to get my own (wink wink -- Christmas is soon, remember!). 

Wednesday Wisdom

About a week ago, my brother posted something on his photography blog that made me think. He talked about the fact that we all have knowledge that can be shared with others. He was talking about photography, but it hit me in the broader sense. In my twenty-one years I have acquired a little wisdom -- whether it be the proper way to structure a sentence, how to make nearly perfect buttercream icing or how to wear a scarf (when I worked at Reitmans, I was asked this question almost daily). I've thought a lot about how I can share my knowledge, and it came to me yesterday while sitting in my Institute class: Wednesday Wisdom (yeah, I'm a sucker for alliteration).
Today, I will share my recipe for buttercream icing. This is a recipe from my mom, but at times I will modify it to achieve different results.

4 cups icing sugar
3 Tbsp. milk
1/2 cup butter
1/2 cup shortening
1 tsp. vanilla
1/8 tsp. salt (optional -- I rarely use it)

First, you will need to cream the butter and shortening in a mixer until smooth, then add the vanilla. Next, add the sugar -- but only one cup at a time! (Otherwise it's super messy and won't blend very well). Also, make sure that you scrape the sides and bottom of the bowl to get everything. Add the milk and blend until completely mixed and smooth. If you want to colour the icing, add your colouring in and mix the icing a little more to spread the colour evenly. Make sure to cover the bowl with a damp cloth to avoid drying out.
This recipe will give you great icing that is yummy and super creamy.
If you want more of a vanilla taste, add one or two extra teaspoons to your mix. It won't affect it too much, but you will notice a slight difference.
Also, if you don't want to make as much icing, you can reduce the amount of sugar, but you don't necessarily need to reduce the other ingredients. I did that once, and it still turned out quite good. The icing was much more creamy that with the extra sugar, and took a little longer to set, but it was still quite good!

Happy baking! If you try it, let me know what worked for you!

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Another tip: if you have icing left over (as you probably will), do not throw it out! Instead, spread some on graham crackers or soda crackers to make a little cracker-icing sandwich. Best treat, trust me!

Book Club: December Ideas

Tomorrow it will be December, so I figured it's probably a good time for me to give some ideas for December's book pick. I have chosen six possibilities, which you can vote on. The book with the highest number of votes will be December's book. (Click on the titles for a summary).

- Emma by Jane Austen *
- Bel Canto by Ann Prachett
- Half Brother by Kenneth Opel
- The Guernsey Literary and Potato Peel Society by Mary Ann Schaffer
- A Christmas Carol by Charles Dickens *

Now do your duty and vote! (I will accept votes until Friday and will choose a book after).

ps. I will post some discussion questions about the November pick by Thursday (sorry that I'm a little behind!).

* = I have an extra copy incase someone needs it.

14

Fourteen months. It has been fourteen months since my dear, sweet Justin started his mission. I am realizing more and more each day that these two years is not my entire life and that I have a lot of growing and learning left to do.
Just ten more months (just over 300 days!) and I get to see my man again. I'm just a little bit excited.

Approximately sixty weekends without a date  is worth it if I get to see that sweet smile and bright blues again in about forty-two weeks. 

ps. just thirty more days and we are into the single digits! Did you just hear strange high pitched scream? Yeah, that was me

Thanksgiving

When I am married and have kids, I want to be the ideal homemaker. I want to have a perfectly decorated home, with well behaved children -- boys who look just like their father, and maybe a girl or two that look like me. I want to cook healthy dinners every night, and have fun with my family. I want to sew beautiful things for our home and make homemade Halloween costumes for the kids. I want to make pies and cakes just because and scrapbook all the important family moments.

Sure to some this may sound like a delusional dream, but it's not to me.

I am trying to practice my skills, so as I mentioned before, I planned a Thanksgiving dinner for my family tonight. All together there were eleven of us (me, mom, dad, Marni, James, David, Carla, Granny, Papa, Uncle Marsh and my good friend Chantelle). Our table was pretty crowded, but we still had a lovely time. I love being with my family -- especially when we are sharing delicious food! (Thank you to mom and David for prepping the turkey and dad for the gravy!)

I also tried my hand at making pies. Not so easy. But, I learned a lot from my first time and look forward to trying it again soon. I forgot to get some pictures, so just use your imagination of what my project looked like. 

I am really so thankful for my family, and am so excited for the day when I will have children of my own that I get to share my life with. 

ps. Two Thanksgivings will probably be a tradition in my family now. I love it!
pps. Comments? I'm starving here. 

C-C-C-Cinnamon Lips

For about a year, or maybe more, I have had a slight obsession with red lipstick. I loved it on other people, was terrified to try it myself. For months, I would buy a new red gloss or lipstick, put it on, look in the mirror, and then promptly take it off.
One day, however, I decided to leave it on. And apparently it worked. Though I am still a little unsure that I can rock the red like Lauren at busybeelauren, I like to think it doesn't look horrendous.
Anyhow. On Sunday, I was feeling festive and a little gutsy, so I wore my very favourite shade.

Red lips always make me feel pretty, and like I am living in a different decade, which of course I love!

Clarification: Response to "Lessons"

After reading the comments I received from Monday's post, I felt the need to clarify. I wasn't meaning to be down on myself. Yes, there are times that I compare myself to others in such a way that it makes me feel inadequate, but that wasn't what was going on in my head Monday night. It was more of comparing my current situation the that of others. I was reminded Monday night that I have a really great life. I have wonderful friends -- seriously amazing girls that bring me up when I am at my lowest. I have an amazing family, a good job, a boyfriend who loves me (even if he is far away), the promise of a university degree somewhere in my future. Anyway. I just wanted to clarify that I wasn't having a pity party and wasn't trying to solicit comments. However, I must thank my mommy and Sarah for their sweet words. Thank you. And thank you to those in my life that remind me daily that I have much to be grateful for.

xo

Create

I love to create. I love to make something out of nothing, to make something unique out of the ordinary. For a long time, my creative outlet of choice has been writing (exhibit a: this blog). But, besides that, I have another beloved pass time: scrapbooking. I love it. I love finding cute papers, and embellishments and making my memories more precious.
Tonight, after a stressful day of thinking (yes, my mind stressing me out more than anything else), and a trip to Michaels to get some goodies (and to see Candi), I had this overwhelming desire to create. I needed some way to get rid of my stress, so I headed downstairs, found a few papers, a picture and began.
This is what happened:

(ignore the glare from the light above). When I found this picture of Riley (my cousin's daughter) tonight, I couldn't resist. She is too precious. She's pretty serious in this one, but this is one silly little lady. Ask her to say "Kristi". Apparently that is the the most comical thing to this girl. 

Thankful

Despite what some Canadians may believe, it is okay to celebrate Thanksgiving more than once in a year. Personally, I think it should be Thanksgiving every day, but I'm not sure how the government feels about that. I suppose we need to work sometimes, right?
I suppose part of my desire to celebrate American Thanksgiving this year (we are having dinner on Sunday -- I am excited!) has to do with my favourite boy celebrating in So Cal. But, part of it is also because it's an excuse to be with family, make pies and focus on what I have been blessed with.
So, to my Canadian and American friends alike: Happy Thanksgiving!

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Oh, and ps: my body needs to find a new home before it shatters from the cold!
I love Calgary, and it is my home. But, it would be kind of nice to skip the winter boots and jacket and -30 weather.
Suggestions for a place to move?
I'm thinking Australia. Or California (of course!).

"An attitude of gratitude"

I have been meaning to start a "gratitude journal" for many years. But, for some reason or another, I never actually did it. However, after a lovely intimate "FHE" last night with my favourite ladies, I decided it was time. So, I bought myself a pretty journal and today was day one. I am really thankful for so many things in my life. I have been blessed immensely and I need to be more aware of it. Also, I have been lacking in the journal department for quite some time, so this will act as that (since this blog is a type of journal, as are my letters to Justin).
What are you grateful for today?

Lessons

I tend to learn my lessons over and over and over again. Apparently I have a very poor memory when it comes to things like life lessons. The lesson I am learning tonight: do not compare yourself to others. This is the hardest for me to overcome. I have always had issues with it -- whether it was my sister being able to do things because she was three years older, or girls getting married who are much younger than me. I can only really know what I need and what is best for me (though I guess I don't know that most of the time). Hopefully I will figure this out one day.

ps. I know you are reading this. I miss having comments.

Harry Potter

Dear Harry Potter, I love you. A lot. Can we be best friends?
I just got back from seeing the movie with Marni. I have determined that I need to expand my vocabulary, because the words I have used to describe the movie (awesome, amazing) just don't cut it. The movie, to take from Harry himself, was "brilliant". Please do yourself a favour and go see it! I am quite certain that if you are a Harry Potter fan (book-wise or movie-wise), you will LOVE it! And if you don't, you're probably dead inside.
That is all. Goodnight.

I am quite certain that I will have difficulty sleeping for the next eight months, because I am so, so excited for part two! 

ps. I have decided that Harry Potter movie marathon will be mandatory before July 15th, as well as a midnight screening. Who's in?

Reading speed

I have never been a fast reader. I did not get that gene. My sister seemed to have gobbled that one up before my time, so there was only "moderate-slow" reader left for me.
Marni and I are going to see Harry Potter tomorrow night (yay!). But, I haven't finished re-reading the book! As part of my book club this month, and in preparation for the movie I started reading it at the beginning of the month. But, with school and work taking up most of my time and leaving me drained I usually don't have much eye-power at the end of the day to read. Hopefully I get can in the last, umm... 500 pages? in somewhere between now and 9:30 tomorrow night.
I love Harry Potter, by the way. I am so excited! (Though kind of nervous, because I get bad anxiety watching suspenseful movies -- even when I know what is going to happen).

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More dreams

I had another very strange and vivid dream last night -- or actually this morning, I guess. Slightly Harry Potter related again, but this time my dream companion was Patrick Jane (Simon Baker, "The Mentalist"). We were in a bad situation, and he tried to cast a few spells to get us out. Strange indeed. My dreams have been haunting me all week. Little tid bits come to me during my day and I desperately try to interpret and explain them. But, no such luck.
On a happier note, I got a lovely letter from my lovely missionary today. I miss him!
Hopefully I will have something more interesting to say tomorrow!
Goodnight.
xo

Hair: Opinions, please!

I'm getting a much needed trim on Friday. I'm not planning to change up my hair that much, but my bangs do need a little something.
This is what I'm thinking:

Yay or nay?

or 

Should I go for the whispy-ish, or the thicker full bang? I'm a fan of both, but would love some opinions. 

Alexis or Anne? Rory or Andy? 

Dreams

It's funny how the small things in life can seep into your dreams at night. I find that I often dream about a song I was recently listening to, or a book I'm reading, or a TV show I was recently watching. I guess that is normal, but for me, the unusual happens with the context.
For example, last night (or this morning), I was dreaming about Voldemort -- I mean He Who Must Not Be Named -- being in my school. I'm not sure if it was my high school or if we were at Hogwarts, but Voldemort was there. I was terrified the entire time, but knew in a way what was happening, because in my dream mind (do you have one of those too?) I knew that after a while, Voldemort would get angry and leave. It was a very strange dream, and as I told the bits I remembered to a friend this morning, I realized how silly it was.
My brain is certainly a funny place.

I don't particularly enjoy Voldemort, but I do enjoy these three. So they shall replace him in picture today. Only 5 more days until the movie is out! 

 I feel like my childhood is really coming to a close with the end of this brilliant series. 

Fragments

Scrapbook supply shopping. Sleeping in. Jeopardy. Card making. Christmas shopping. New yoga mat. Road trip. Road trip playlist. Taking pictures. New tights. Harry Potter. Great work out with my work out buddy. Snail mail. Recipes. Missionary scrapbook supplies. Christmas music. "Hello, Dolly!".

That is my weekend in fragments. I love having a few days off to relax and take some time to myself, and to spend time with my big sister. I will be back at it on Monday, class on Tuesday. Apparently you can never escape it.

The Sound of Music

Last week, the cast of "The Sound of Music" were guests on Oprah, in celebration of 45 years since its release. Mom, being the wonderful mom that she is, PVR'd it for me. It was splendid. And since then, I have been getting my "Sound of Music" fix anywhere I can get it. First, I found the soundtrack on iTunes and promptly bought it, and listened to it. Over and over. And then tonight, I watched it. And let me tell you, it was wonderful.

I have loved this movie since I was a wee one and will continue to love it for the rest of my life. 

As I was watching it tonight (for the first time in maybe two or more years), I realized how much was lost on me when I was a kid. I liked the music, and wanted desperately to be one of the Von Trapp children, but the historical and political issues of the film meant nothing to me then. Now, older and wiser, I get it. It's just funny how that happens. I actually find that a lot now, re-watching movies or TV shows I watched when I was a kid. I realize now that I didn't know anything then, and most things just went right over my head.

Anyhow. I love "The Sound of Music". A lot. It means a lot to me, and I will forever cherish. I am so excited for the day when I can share it with my children! 

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"This is Louis, Dolly!"

I'm pretty sure that I have mentioned just a few times how much I love music. I have shared my love for the music that calms me, motivates me and gets me through my toughest days.
Tonight, I am listening to the amazing Louis Armstrong. I love him. Love.
Seriously. He does something to my heart. I can literally feel my heart grow with happiness.
So, friends, please do yourself a little favour and listen to my friend Louis. (You can never go wrong with the classic, "What A Wonderful World" or a little "Hello Dolly").

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Book Club: November Pick

Hey, friends. So I have decided that for November, the pick will be Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows (since the movie will be out in twelve days!). If you want to read along with me, please do! And if you don't want to, I won't be offended. Just join me next month! Check back later for some discussion on the amazingness that is Harry Potter.
Also, if you have suggestions at any time for a book, let me know!
Happy reading!

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Progress

My hair, believe it or not continues to grow! I thought it was about time to document its progress.
I am so excited to see what it will look like with another year of growth!

Curly. 

Straight. (Yep, that's the California Republic flag behind me. Dad is lending it to me while I search for my own.)

Count Your Blessings

It is nearly ten o'clock, and my bed is calling my name. But first I need to share a few thoughts.
It is November 5th, and yet it was almost 20 degrees all day. I could hardly believe it when I walked to the bus stop this morning, wearing my lightest spring jacket, and I did not feel the slightest chill. It was almost surreal. I am so glad that fall decided to hold on a little longer. They say today was the last nice day we will have, so I am thankful I got to enjoy it a little bit.
I find when times are tough, I need to count my blessings even more and focus on the good. Sometimes that is really, really hard (like right this moment), but I know it is needed.
Let's count my blessings, shall we?


1. I have a home.
2. I live in a beautiful country.
3. I am in love.
4. I have a wonderful family.
5. My legs still work, even after I make them endure intense exercise they weren't used to.
6. I have amazing friends.
7. I am fortunate enough to be getting a good education.
8. I have a job that I actually enjoy.
9. I am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.
10. My ears work, and allowed me to listen to the wonderful sounds today.


That feels a little better. My heart is still hurting a little bit, but I am constantly reminded that I can do tough things. And friends, so can you.
xo

Blessing #3. 

"So, amid the conflict whether great or small,

Do not be discouraged, God is over all;

Count your many blessings, angels will attend,

Help and comfort give you to your journey’s end."

Remember this tee? I had nearly forgotten about it, then received the much anticipated e-mail that it was back in stock (in a slightly different style)! And now it is on it's way to find me! I'm just a little bit excited.

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All is Full of Love

I love reading NieNie, and every day that I do, I come away inspired and in awe of Stephanie's love for her family and love of life. Today, she said something that really struck me, and made my eyes a little wet. I had to share:


"Love is what changes trying times into bearable times, and hard moments into a good learning moments."


Reading that, it was if my heart agreed and exclaimed, "Yes! Yes! That's it!". I completely believe that love conquers all. I have seen that in my life. When I want to quit and can't see how anything will ever change, I remember the love that I have in my life -- whether it be the love of my family, Justin or the love that my Heavenly Father and Saviour have for me. Love is all you need. I know that.

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Do-Re-Mi

I needed a little cheering up this morning, and thought maybe other people did too. Watch this video.

Shred

This semester it has been really hard for me to keep up with my workouts. A lack of motivation mixed with early mornings and warm blankets has turned into an increase in my laziness and my hips too. So, today I started day one of Jillian Michael's "30 Day Shred". Right when I got home from work, I did it thinking it would be no big deal to do a twenty-minute work out. But, it was. I'm feeling it. But, I also feel really good. I am looking forward to doing it tomorrow, and possibly adding in a little jog too if this weather holds up.
Exercise is worth it. I feel much better about myself when I actually make the effort, and I am looking forward to seeing the results!

ps. If I don't get any more feedback about book club, I'll choose a book by Friday. So please, let your voice be heard!

Missionary Update

Transfer time again!
Yesterday, I received the usual lovely e-mail from my Justin. And he informed me that he has in fact been transferred this time. He will be serving in Jurupa (just outside of Riverside) with Elder Darais. He is also now a District Leader! I am so excited for him. He has such a great personality, and definitely has the qualities of a leader. I am really looking forward to seeing how this new responsibility helps him grow even more.

ps. This has been my 300th post. Yikes!

"...hat, sir"

Just waiting for my institute class to start, and I decided to browse through Anthropologie's new items. Perhaps not the smartest idea. I want this hat. Actually, make that need. But could I pull it off?

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Book Club: Ideas

Okay, book club friends! It's time to pick a book. I don't know what everyone likes to read, but I am game for pretty much anything. While at work today, I made a list of a few that might be good to read. Please add your suggestions or pick one from my list and we'll pick one for November.

Emma by Jane Austen
Little Women by Louisa May Alcott
I am Number Four by Pittacus Lore
The Guernsey Literary and Potato Peel Society by Mary Ann Schaffer
Pride and Prejudice and Zombies by Jane Austen and Seth Grahame-Smith
Sweetness at the Bottom of the Pie by Alan Bradley
Safe Haven by Nicholas Sparks
Never Let Me Go by Kazuo Ishiguro
Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows by J.K. Rowling (since the movie is out in two weeks).

Do you like any of those suggestions? Or have any of your own?

Happy (belated) Halloween!

As promised, here are the extra pictures from Monday night's FHE. And also pictures from Friday night's dance (from the ten minutes that we were there!).
Hope this Halloween has been a good one!
xo

Candi with our pumpkin. And her papes!

And Danny so excited, showing his FedEx pride.

Cleopatra and "Candi" Corn!

Me, the nerd with Candi Corn.

And with Cleopatra. I love us. 

13

Whew! That last month flew by didn't it?
Last night, while I was heading to the hockey game with David and Carla, I realized what day it was and immediately exclaimed "It's been thirteen months!". Even though David didn't appreciate my enthusiasm, it still meant a lot to me to realize that I have survived another month.
In talking to my good friend today (who is also waiting for her missionary), I have come to realize more and more that people will not understand waiting for a missionary. It bothers me a lot when my experience is scoffed at, because there are very few couples that actually survive the mission experience. But, I know that people just don't understand, and don't understand my level of commitment. I know that I am strong enough to do this, and I was very grateful to have that reminder today.
Hooray for time moving along!

Man, I love this boy!

 336 days. 336 days. 336 days. 

Halloween Flashback

As I am getting ready for the YSA Halloween dance tonight, I am reminded of the last one I attended. Two years ago. With a very special guy.

You can't see it from his shirt, but this is Justin as Superman/Clark Kent. (And myself as his Lois Lane). 

It is wonderful to think that this is my last Halloween without him! I have so many costumes planned for our long future together. 

Book Club

I have always wanted to be part of a book club! I've always thought that it sounded so fab. A book club. So quaint. Full of (non-caffenated) tea and biscuits and long discussions about whether you would chose Mr. Darcy or Mr. Bingley (I'm a Darcy girl, myself). And so, I want to invite you, my dear friends, if you are interested to have a book club! Even if you don't live in Calgary, I want you to be a part of this! We can share our thoughts here or on another blog (like my book blog).  

Are you interested? (Please say yes!)

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"The spontaneous overflow of powerful feelings..."

Today, my love of English Literature was renewed. First thing this morning, I got to sit in my Romantic Lit class and listen to my professor recite some Wordsworth poems and gush about how amazing it is that we get to read such wonderful poetry today. It is so refreshing to have a professor that really loves literature and cares about what she is teaching.

And then, my love quadrupled when I read William Wordsworth's poem "Lines Written a Few Miles Above Tintern Abbey". Love. Really. Wordsworth wrote the kind of poetry that moves from my brain straight to my heart. I love it. 

So friends, do your heart some good and read poetry. 

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"Poetry is the spontaneous overflow of powerful feelings: it takes its origin from emotion recollected in tranquility"

-William Wordsworth

This Charming Man

This morning, I was watching "Regis and Kelly" (my favourite morning show, next to KTLA's morning news), and Kelly was talking about the fact that a lot of men these days are not very gentlemanly, especially when taking a girl out for dinner. She said that the trend has been for men to assume they will go dutch on a date, or even expect a girl to pay. She then said that when she and her husband were dating, it was the opposite and he wouldn't even think twice about being the one to pay.

Of course, this anecdote made me think of my own man. Justin is such a gentleman! He opens doors for me, pays for dinner, holds my hand, walks on the left side of me when we're walking on sidewalk (closest to the street). He tells me I am beautiful, and that he loves me. So, when people say that "chivalry is dead" I want to shout, "No, no it's not!" because I have sufficient evidence for the opposite. I love my gentleman.

While I am on the subject of bragging about my guy, I was reminded of a talk given by President Uchtdorf last year at a CES Broadcast. During this broadcast, President Uchtdorf was talking about the fairy tale that many girls create for themselves when trying to find someone to date or marry. He talked a lot about how these things are really not that realistic, and we shouldn't be so focused on those unattainable things, because it is more important to find a righteous man who will love us and be a worthy priesthood holder. Anyhow, at one point, he relates the story of a girl who comes across a genie who promises to grant her a wish. Of course she wishes for world peace, which the genie says is impossible and insists that this girl asks for something else. She then asks for "someone who is handsome, thoughtful, and has a sense of humor; someone who will help around the house, loves kids, doesn’t watch sports all the time, has a great job, and thinks first about my happiness; someone who will go shopping with me and who can get along with my family". After this request, the genie says that it shouldn't be too hard to do that world peace thing [insert laugh here]. I remember watching this and thinking immediately: that's Justin. Justin is extremely handsome. Justin is incredibly thoughtful. Justin has a wonderful sense of humour. Justin is definitely one that will help around the house (in fact, he would help me with my chores when he would come to visit me). Justin adores kids. Justin, though he loves sports, does not watch them all the time -- or very much at all. Justin does have a great job right now (as a missionary) and will have a great job when he completes his schooling (he's looking at being a nurse). Justin is one of the most selfless people I know and most definitely thinks first about my happiness. Justin loves to go shopping with me. And Justin gets along really well with my family. Yep, I have found the perfect guy. Honestly. I am often dumbfounded as to why I get to be with him. I am just so, so blessed.

I love my man!

"I love us!"

Do I say that I love my friends enough? I don't think that I do. So let's repeat that. I love my friends!

Tonight, my ward had its annual Halloween activity for FHE, complete with pumpkin carving and sweets. I personally do not like pumpkin carving. I am not very good at carving pumpkins (they always look hideous!) and the smell of pumpkins makes me nauseous. However, tonight I enjoyed. First of all, I did not have to carve the pumpkin. Second of all, there were only a few pumpkins being carved, so the smell wasn't over powering. And thirdly, I was with my girls!

When the activity was announced yesterday in church, we were encouraged to dress up. Megan promised the girls in Relief Society that she would dress up, and so on the way home, we collectively (she, myself and Candi) decided we would all dress up. And Chantelle joined us, of course. Sadly, we were the only ones that dressed up, but that's okay. Because we are awesome!

See?

Chantelle was an Indian woman, Candi was a newsie, Megan was Farrah Fawcett/70's woman (her waves were gone by this point) and I was a runner. (I do have more pictures from tonight, but the image uploader is being difficult, so that will have to wait until tomorrow.)
I need to come up with a better costume for Friday night's dance!

As Chantelle said tonight, "I love us!"

How Do I Love Thee?

Happy Sabbath! Today, I want to share a short video. I love the messages of the Prophet and Apostles. They touch my heart each time I hear their words, and I know that their message comes from God. Today, I share a message from Elder Jeffrey R. Holland about my favourite subject: love. Enjoy!

Today has been a day of laughter, dancing, cupcakes and rejuvenation -- and it has been splendid! 

That is all I have to say for now. 

Goodnight, friends. 

xo

I Feel it All

At times, it is very difficult for me to express myself while speaking. The words are there in my head, and it makes sense to me, but then I say it to someone else and it turns into something completely different from the original thought in my head.
This happened tonight -- just minutes ago, actually. I was trying to express an honest feeling of mine, and it was taken as being a selfish thing -- which is not was I was trying to share.
So, I guess rather than be vague and pointless, I will share my feelings, because I need an outlet for them right now.
I miss being a part of a couple. Yes, Justin and I are still boyfriend and girlfriend, but with him being far away in California, and being a missionary, being a "couple" is kind of difficult. We don't go on dates, and he isn't here -- which honestly sucks. Having a married sister, and a brother who is also in a relationship, I feel a little out of the loop because I can't do couple things with them. I still have really great relationships with my siblings (in fact, Marni and I have become closer since she got married), but I still feel left out of some things now because my other half is gone for another eleven (and a half) months. Does that make sense? I'm just feeling a little on the outs tonight and wishing that my man were here to hang out with me tonight.
But, let me end by saying that I am happy with my life. I love my family, and am so, so blessed to have the good friendships that I have with them. I know that it is my choices that led me to where I am today, and I take full responsibility for that, realizing that by choosing this path, I will receive greater blessings in the (near) future. I know this. But, I am still prone to these feelings. Anyhow, that's my two cents for the evening.
Goodnight.
xo

Heat Wave

I had a lovely experience while on my way home from school today. I was sitting on the train, reading a book, listening to music and feeling the lovely warm sun on my face. And then, to add even more to this perfect moment, one of my very favourite songs come on. "Heat Wave" by Martha Reeves and the Vandellas. There is no way that you can be in a foul mood while listening to this song. Seriously. Take a listen for yourself. You will not regret it!

Taking Back Sunday

Today, I listened to Taking Back Sunday all day (on my way to work, and on my breaks), and I was reminded of the day that I bought their sophomore album, Where You Want to Be. I was fifteen and had just experienced my first Warped Tour the week previous. I bought the album the day (or soon after) it was released at Best Buy for $9.99. This was in fact the very first album I purchased. And it was then that I began my tradition (that I still keep for the most part today).
When I got home that day I hastily opened the package (oh, how I loath packaging) and placed the CD into my stereo (this was before I had a laptop, obviously, and in fact before the days of iPods). I pressed play, and while sitting on my bed, lyric booklet in hand, I absorbed every note and syllable. I'm quite sure that I listened to that album on repeat for at least a month, loving it more and more each time.
So, listening to it this morning, I was transformed back into that shy, unsure fifteen year old, who was just discovering and creating herself. Taking Back Sunday has been a huge musical influence on me these past seven years (I started listening to them when I was fourteen) and have definitely aided in the shaping of my current musical interest and love.

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What was the first album you purchased? Do you still listen to it today?

Happiness

I feel like I have found the formula for happiness today. Would you like to know the recipe?
Step one: Complete an assignment, and hand it in. Sigh of relief!
Step two: Read a good book on the train to and from school (one that has nothing to do with your required course readings)
Step three: Enjoy the sunny and breezy walk from home to the bus to the train to school to institute to the train to the bus to home.
Step four: Attend Institute! Or engage in some sort of scriptural study. Feed your spirit.
Step five: Have a yummy snack. Yogurt + granola + blueberries. Mmm!
Step six: Come home to another letter from your sweet missionary boyfriend (who will be home in 11 and a half months!)
Step seven: Listen to good music. Thank you Taking Back Sunday to taking me back to a simpler time.

And there you have it. Enjoy the happiness!

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Speaking of missionaries...

Since I have my missionary on the brain today (like any other day), I thought I would share what I recently sent Elder Marshall to celebrate his one year. Packages are expensive, and since I will be sending him a bigger one for Christmas in a few months, I decided to keep it simple. He loves getting ties, so I always include at least one with every single package. And I try to send him homemade cards for special occasions as well. And of course, I always like to add something sentimental.

Pictures (mostly from my adventures this summer: EFY, picnic with the fam, 5K #2), card (made by me), Skittles (the new "crazy core" ones, since I couldn't find sour ones), and the traditional Starbursts, and a "Justin" tie (less than $10!!! I love sales!).

I'm still waiting to hear whether or not he's received this one, but I hoping he got it this week.

Elders will be boys

Have you ever been in the same room with at least two sets of missionaries? If not, it is an experience. I'm not sure what it is but something happens when you put three or four (or more) guys between the ages of 19 and 21(ish) in the same room. The goof and silly factor sky rockets. The laughter increases. And the head shaking of those witnessing the interaction at least doubles. Don't believe me? I have proof.

Here is Elder Marshall (the cutie in the very nice pink and blue tie -- selected by yours truly) with his companion and his roommates. (L-R: Elder Spjut, Elder Bailey, Elder Marshall, Elder Shaw).

ps. Happy 33 months, Justin. I love you!

In the Cold Cold Night

Blankets, blankets and more blankets, I love you. And socks too. And warm PJs. And the promise of at least eight hours of sleep ahead of me.
After a very busy day at work today -- it was our store's 10th year anniversary, complete with a visit from Curious George -- I enjoyed a quiet night at home. Soup and toast warmed my belly while buddy bags warmed my feet and a good book warmed my heart. Mmm. As much as the cold of fall that we are experiencing this weekend displeases me, I do enjoy being able to pile on the blankets and sweaters. I am definitely a fan of the cozy factor.
I am definitely looking forward to an uplifting and restful Sabbath day tomorrow.

xo

(ps. I now have the song "Shiver" stuck in my head now. If you are reading this Candi, you will understand).

We Sing. We Dance. (But we don't steal things).

Two words: Dance party.
I have the best friends. The best. Tonight after a short stay at the YSA activity, we headed back to the "party-house", and while trying to decide between going to a dance and staying in to watch a movie, we settled on our own dance party, complete with sweat pants and pizza. It was wonderful. My best work out this week!
Note to self: dance more often!

She & Him

Dear Zooey Deschannel, I love you. Can we be best friends?



She & Him is definitely one of my absolutely favourite musical collaborations. Zooey Deschannel and M. Ward. Genius.

ps. Did any one else see the resemblance between Zooey and Alexis Bledel (Rory Gilmore)?

I am thankful for:

family. justin. snail mail. internet. showers. soap. sunshine. buddy bags. new clothes. sweater weather. memories. the commandments. friends. role models. education. freedom. highways. planes. e-mails. fingers. running shoes. cereal. love. arms. laughter. sunscreen. lotion. justin. socks. water. purses. legs. employment. books. family. my future family. my future in-laws. blankets. JB. pictures. creativity. colours. hope. justin. mom. dad. david. marni. james. friends. toes. paper. pens. the gospel. pretty things. the future. nature. hymns. music. joy. seasons. family. my brain. professors. smiles. the pvr. 


In a nut-shell, that is what I am thankful for today. I have been blessed with so many things in my life, and I am so grateful to my Heavenly Father for allowing me to enjoy all of it.

Happy anniversary!

I have been staying at my sister and brother-in-law's place while they are spending the week in Mexico. And, for some reason the internet decided to quit on my second day, so that explains my hiatus. I have many, many things to say, but I that would be just too much right now. So, I will just say one thing.
Happy anniversary, Marni and James!

I can't believe it's been one year since we were all freezing our bottoms off in the unsually cold October we had. That was a pretty wonderful day and I am very touched that you let me be a part of it. I am so excited for your second anniversary next year! That is going to be so great!

ps. Since I am at their place on their anniversary, that means I get to eat the top of their wedding cake we saved, right?

Mini-Shopaholic

I think I can officially be diagnosed as a "Shopaholic"-aholic.
I just finished reading Mini-Shopaholic by the lovely Sophie Kinsella. It was fab! Read about it here, at my book blog.

 

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Mini-Shopaholic

Once again, Sophie Kinsella has delivered. I finished Mini-Shopaholic (my first purchase with my employee discount) this afternoon on my way home from school. I enjoyed every minute of it. Of course. Becky Brandon (nee Bloomwood), one of my very best book friends, was hilarious and complicated as ever in this new installment of the Shopaholic series. Along with her fiesty two-year old, Minnie, Becky has one adventure after another that kept me entertained. I love reading these books while I am in school, because it's a nice change of pace from the usual suspects (Edmund Spenser and Mary Wollstonecraft this week). I would definitely recommend this read to any Kinsella fans. With a word of caution though. You will want to shop, and shop and shop. And you will fall in love with the Brandons all over again.
Happy reading!

ps. I just realized that I have been reading this series since I was in high school (possibly grade ten or eleven -- I don't recall). Becky is a part of my life now.

Autumn

At the beginning of September, I was a little scared. It was cold. All the time. And I was always wet. I was scared that I wouldn't get to enjoy fall like I usually do. Fall and I have always had a lovely love affair, especially while I've been attending university for the last three years. And thankfully, those yucky days of rain seem to be over for a little while. It has been so beautiful this last week! I love it! I love a warm fall. I love enjoying the warmish weather while also soaking up the marvelous atmosphere that is autumn. Autumn means light sweaters, socks in bed, herbal tea, books, and new beginnings. I love autumn.

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What does autumn mean to you?