Lately I have been having a really hard time with Justin being gone. I am at the point where I am getting really excited for him to come home (in 8 1/2 months!), but completely terrified at the same time. We have kept our relationship incredibly strong these past fifteen months, but there are those moments where I wonder, and worry, and fret. I wonder if I made the right decision. I wonder if maybe I should try dating other guys. I wonder if it will all come back and if we'll be able to go through on the plans we've made.
And then there are times where I read a letter, or hear a song, or see a picture and I just know. I know that I love Justin and I know that we'll be okay.
I just had one of those moments a few seconds ago. Justin's mom just e-mailed me a picture that one of her friends had found from the summer Justin graduated. It made my heart melt and smile and squeal with joy. I love this boy. This man. I love him and I am so lucky that he loves me too. I can do eight and a half months. And more importantly, I can do today. One day at a time. And soon enough, I'll be with him again, laughing because I was worried for no reason.
My man and his other girl, Jill.
1 comment:
I know exactly how you feel. This even happened when I knew Gordon was going to propose. I already knew it was right but there's always those little doubts that creep in and the "what ifs" start to gnaw at you a little. One thing I always tried to remember was that doubt was Satan's tool and that if I already had received confirmation that something was right and it was bringing me joy, then any doubts were not from the Lord. I know you know this already but sometimes it helped me to remind myself.
<3
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